I figured I would post again before school starts again. My girls start tommorrow and I start Tuesday.
I have a couple of leads on a part time job so I hope to be employed soon then I will treat myself to a lap top.
Anyway I do kind of want to settle everything and have nothing left between h and I but of course the children will always be there. H is actually been very agreeable when it comes to the ds and me changing the schedule based on my schooling.
I am only trying to make sure that I am healed or at least healing. I see so many people who are able to accept ow and become friends with their x's. I am not sure that I can ever do that. I am not sure if that is healthy or not. I think though that if I were to just accept it all it might send a message to my ds that it is okay because every one lives happily ever after. I am also so against d and the fact that my h could expose my children so such immoral behaviour. I can't understand how he could just flaunt it in front of his daughters. Most people try to protect their children from such stuff not expose them to it. I think I need at least to be consistent with what they are learning.
Another thing is that h had no respect for me and I know he has none for ow so it sets such a bad example for my girls. They will learn from their father that it is okay for them to be treated that way by their future boyfriends or husbands. I know it is up to me to show them that they deserve to be treated with respect.
Well that is all for now. I hope to check in more often but working and going to school may make it difficult.
