I liked the sound of that more, too, karen. And just for purposes of this BB, it could even be MORE angry, more demanding, more pissed off, more resentful. If you ever get around to emailing him that or telling him, you can always tone it down... but can you make it shorter and about 10X angrier???
With less "you" and more "karen"?
It still sounds pretty self-controlled and rational... reach deep down and pull out the stuff you vowed you would NEVER say to him, the really low, hateful, dirty stuff-- how much this hurts, how lonely you are, how you had this baby for him (even though you adore the baby)... not saying you have to say any of this to him... in fact I'm suggesting you NOT say the really icky stuff. But I feel like I want to crawl inside your soul with a flashlight and a whisk broom and sweep out the dusty, resentful corners.
Care to give it another try?
ETA: I think what I want to hear from you is more anger and MORE vulnerability... more anger mixed with hurt, more desperation, more rage and frustration ESPECIALLY knowing that you have left yourself no way out of this sitch. A tone that's more challenging...
