What has that bought me so far? A failed M and a second M where I over-romanticized a really great guy who is probably somewhat ill suited to me.
That's because you haven't added the honesty piece yet. I know you think you have but have you really said any of this to your H? It doesn't seem like you are willing to go there yet.
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I have great hope that with H's participation we could have both romance & commitment.
I know. But how are you going to get to the "his participation" part? You seem to just being going on a lot of hope and not a lot of action. Hope I'm not coming off too harsh. I really just want you to succeed. Then we can share hot sex stories!