There is my heart and there is my head. Yes, I am a romantic. If I have a choice I prefer love. What has that bought me so far? A failed M and a second M where I over-romanticized a really great guy who is probably somewhat ill suited to me.
When I say I love H I mean the whole package. The lack of contact causes me to have difficulty with the romantic part of the equation but I am a big girl and i know that "in love" comes and goes. I have great hope that with H's participation we could have both romance & commitment. When he says love he means commitment. The truth is that due to my failed first M commitment comes first. I believe he knows that and uses it.
The party was fun but we brought the baby due to his ear infection so it wasn't quite the adults only event that I hoped for. The food was great, the dress was great. My children told me how pretty I looked and H wore his new jacket and looked terrific.
