hey bi, my H has actually realized at some extent how faulty was his logic and thinking "feeling bad? go to ow", he acknowledges that, i'm thankful for it, she in turn supposedly told him the last time they talked that she never wants to speak to him nor to contact her while he's still married (jeez, how noble, and yet she still is holding out hope), along with a few harsh words.
H is pretty broken, how i wish he'd take some aD, he wont due to hsi job. The negative thoughts are eating him alive and how I wish wish he'd know the stuff I've learned here, I've told him some, and he noods, but I know it will be excrutiatingly hard for him to stop the guilt beatings. Hope he gets more doen at the T on monday. I hurt to see him hurt, but I feel like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders, he sees ow as what she was, a crutch, a whore, a desperate person, whom, in a way, he used when he felt bad. I Hope he is able to forgive himself and let us heal. I feel stronger, our Dear Lord has take over when I cried out and admitted to my weakness of handling this trial.
A beautiful paragraph from my bible study said how we worry so much about something which God has safely in his hands, instead, we should focus on the One who has the power to make things happen.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
