Haha! Nice way to put it. I appreciate that. You always have the right view. Thanks for checking in.
Well friends and I started the night early. Everyone knew that I was expecting to meet up with W later on. Well after about 2 hours off work, no call, no text. So I let it roll off my back. Well in typical W fashion, she is always late, always forgets, and hardly thinks of others. Not just me. I get a text, "Aren't you coming, we are waiting and playing plado."
So I head down. Played with S most of the time. Swords, transformers, all kinds of good stuff. Suddenly I'm served a cup of tea. I was really grateful and nice about it. S wanted me to put him to bed, which I did. When I came out she had arranged the couch so that I would have sit next to her. So we sat and watched some tv. All we ever do is watch tv. So I suggested playing a card game or doing something else, of course right then one of her all time great movies comes on. So TV it is.
We sit in silence for a while, then she asks if I'm hungry and I say I'll eat if you are. She made us bagels, thankful again. This time upon returning to the couch she clamed up and moved away as far as she could. I could feel she was tense.
She slide her feet under me, her typical give me a foot rub sign. I just left them were they where. After a few minutes she pulled them back. I didn't say anything about the R or D, and we haven't really said much about either in a while. Sort of at a stand still.
Somehow while I was doing some validating earlier in the night she got on future talk and mentioned that she was pissed she couldn't even afford a townhouse, and that I can barely afford "our" house. Guess I'm a paycheck. Haha! Whats really gonna piss her off is that since she is on "our" mortgage no one will give her a loan whatsoever. Unless it's predatory or something.
Well after seeing she was uncomfortable I decedided the best move would be to end the night early and call it good. Said I had to go, she said good because she didn't want to keep me from going out. Told her I don't bar hop any more and just left it at that. She doesn't know that I'm not drinking and I'm not going to tell her. She will figure it out. I just said I don't bar hop and I was going home to do some work and go to bed.
She then asked if she could come by tomorrow and use the computer and hang out. Said sure. She then asked if I wanted to go to a place with her and S tomorrow morning and I declined. Don't want to push to much, plus I need to good reflection time.
Not really sure if I'm seeing anything good or bad. I also feel that the OM judgment earlier is off, but I really think she is seeing others, which doesn't make me happy. But I'm having fun with new friends and if it goes south, I'll be fine now.
