First off, you did not let anyone down. You helped me to grow as a man over the past year - a price I can never repay. I never knew what a real man was until our "heated" discussions. Only when I listened to what you were really saying did I finally "get it"
I am not the only one you touched.
Have a doc check you out since chemical imbalance can do it to us.
We are alone. That is perhaps the single most profound thing that you and others here have taught me. It is up to us. If we become dependent on others or events, or worse co-dependent, then we are doomed.
That was what was behind my anxiety and anger - I focused outside rather than within. Once I accepted I was alone, and I still am not there 100% yet, I am beginning to find that inner peace and strength.
It is up to me. Only me. But I also accept the support of people like you.
Anxiety is overturned by courage.
From what I read "frank_D" = courage.
Like the Warrior who lost many of his men in battle, many friends, and takes it personally - the Warrior no longer wants to command. But his King reminds him that he too lost the same men - and many others to boot. The Warrior said "I just thought I was alone" - the King said "you were alone and always will be".
And then the King adds: "You have no choice but to command. You are stuck with your own record. Go forth and conquer. Go to the edge of the Dark Forest and seek out the Wild Man. He will help you."
As you will frank. Your Warrior is tired. What is your King saying? Your Magician? Your Lover?
Seek out the Wild Man. Ask for a strong war horse. The Wild man will say:
"You will receive that, and more than you have asked for as well."
I will end with my favorite thought: Strength and Honor.
But I know we discussed that before so let me add this for you my friend:
