Letting go and going with the flow

[bravagal]

wait a minute...

I just got the pun there in your change of title.

well, the ring is on and I am on and IN JAPAN!!

So crazy, I am in a hotel for a week as I get settled in to the apartment, get my shipment etc. I have so not processed that I am here for at least a year. Wonder when that will hit.

I am in a good place though.

My hotel room is tiny but fine. I am so excited that it has internet: which I think is free but not sure as the internet instructions are in japanese.

I met one of my neighbors and fellow teachers yesterday. She is so sweet. Today i am going to lunch at the home of one of the managers. That should be fun.

All went well the last night with H. He was not emotional or anything but I figured. He put the wall up to stay neutral. I bought him a webcam- so lets see if he contacts me. (I actually replied already to another forward he sent me and 10 other people (mostly women). Maybe our friendship can grow with the added distance.
\That last night I ended up writing him a note witht eh things I wanted to say and stuck it in the bag with the webcam. He did not tell me he found the note but I am sure he did. It was in an envelope with his name and if not he will see it when he tries to install the webcam
The note was very short . i wrote that:
though we dont know what the future holds for us , right now I know that I want to hold a place in my heart and life for him.
no matter what, I am there for him to talk and to listen.

I wished him good luck In a funny italian way) for the restaurant and that was it .

short and sweet. but it said what I wanted to without me being needy. (or so I think).

THanks WCW for all the great advice.... hmmm, you are wise with this R stuff.

sayonara!

brava