You know, I read the posts to me and I think "I can't believe this is me." My H needs to go to detox? I have come to believe that I am never going to get used to the idea that all this happened.
H has loaned someone sooooo much money that I don't think he's going to be able to move out right now, or that will be his justification. Now, he hasn't mentioned moving out since I told him he needed to soon, but I think he's just in denial that the deadline is quickly approaching. He said Feb. 1 and I just wonder what he is thinking. I don't think he'll do anything to prepare, he'll just up and go, if he goes.
He is staying to himself and not really talking to any of us again. D18 leaves tomorrow to head back to college and he has almost nothing to do with her. I noticed last night he was going to bed and walked by us and said "see you tomorrow." I asked D18 after, "When did he stop kissing you goodnight?" She said, "Oh, a long time ago." I feel so sad for her.
I am keeping away from him most of the time. I'm civil when the kids are around, but when we are alone he stays to himself, as do I.
"Tell me what you plan to do with your one wild and precious life." Mary Oliver
