respond or stay still?

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How Do You Know when they are thinking of breaking the silence and seeking you out again???

H called this am. has not done that wks. He was trying to find s and wanted to know if he was away... ? not sure why he was asking me for he had talked to people at work and stopped by his work 2 nights in a row looking for him.

so he has my ck. and could not give it to s I didn't say a word.
kept listening. He asked when d would be back from trip and then told me that L has final draft of papers done. Do I want them sent to my L or me. I said please send me a copy so I can look at them before talking to the L.

didn't say anything else about it. He seemed to get nervous and then he said to have s call him about going out tonight.

oh and he talked about s not going to college this semester and staying up all night and sleeping all day again. Said s sends him txt msg at 5 am some days.

so... then I thought and did something I am sure I should not have but I am at the what the heck stage have nothing else to lose.

I called him back... told him I was going to dinner and that he and s can hang out here. He said that would be nice asked what time. I said I was not sure would find out and send him a txt.

ok... so I then say we need to talk before d's party next week for their can't be tension between us in front of all those kids.
I feel like you are avoiding me like the plague.... he did not agree or disagree or say a thing. He said ok.
had to go....

his phone rang and rang before he answered and at the beginning of the conversation I swear he sounded like maybe he had been crying. Now he has NEVER cried in front of me... nope done it several times in front of d.

so.... how much contact... that is the question...
if he is still holding on to the papers and has not had her send them yet... and there is a chance I can talk to him and
he is maybe seeing the light how do I do this???

just need some advice and how to let him know I am still here with out being to forward
this is part I don't get.
I have not talked to him and let him have his space for all these months.

just not sure if he realizes that I am willing to work on this M still... how do you say so without coming out and saying it?
or do you say it?