Good advice from Ms.Ladybug. I think you did what you needed to do to cope. I applaud you for wanting to work it out still. I have to keep reminding myself that my husband is the husband that I married. It is getting harder and harder because when I read these boards I see so much of what he has done to me and then I start feeling like F--ck him! I have to keep in mind that I am a strong proponent of marriage and family. It is what I know and what I come from and I know it is the best thing for my son even though my husband is being a being a big, fat d--ck right now.