We went out for a family meal on Wednesday, conversation flowed easily.
But I cant seem to shake this despondent feeling that I have atm. H has had the boys since Wednesday and he has had a full agenda. I mean a completely full agenda, doing things and making an effort where he wouldn't normally, either because he has the time or more energy.
I have found out this morning that he is going to his brothers (remember NY's eve, when he had a pity party for one?) well he phoned his brother up late last night and is going up this pm!!!
Why couldn't he have come up with me and the boys last Monday? He never wants to go there, so why today, last week he couldn't cope with family?
I know he's going b/c I spoke to my SIL and she told me... she's just as shocked.
I almost feel as if he's saying what you can do I can do better...Maybe i'm wrong, maybe he's just finding things to do to get out of his 'shoebox' house.
He just seems different and I don't know if this is good for me or not.
He re-starts back at yoga on Tuesday, instead of taking S1 to his activity, so this again is new.
It's almost like he's made a NY's resolution to be get om/move on with his life?
I asked him to help me with my ski's and luggage for my holiday next week, he said he would help on Wednesday, I asked him if he wanted to come and have some dinner, he said 'yes that would be great'.
On NY's eve, H sent me a txt (may have mentioned it above). WEll i replied last night to it.
I said I understood how my behaviour & the way we lived may have contributed too my taking us for granted and not prioritising us enough may have helped lead too driving the wedge between us. I said I appreciated how hard he worked and very proud of everything he had achieved to make us financially comfortable as a family.
His reply was 'I suppose its good to look back and understand how we have gone wrong - I have learnt alot'.
Who is DB who here?
I'm confused, any thoughts on what I should do next?
X Eve
P/A confirmed 5/03/08
03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage
T: 13 M: 8 D:20 & 17 from Previous M S: 8 & 4 BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY S: 13/10/07