MLC's come home-part 2

[cagzmom]

wow the honesty in all of your post really touched me.

One thing I can say is that I do know wondering if/when whatever causes so much pain - and making my own descions for my life is so wonderful.

God has been showing up in big ways with me the last few weeks. I have hope as I haven't had in a year. I dont dwell on will we or wont we. Just what the heck am I doing.

I know that I have read time and time again I need to move on with MY life. This is so true. The MLCer --- what is he really? I dont know. The person the shell- it isn't my H.

What is amazing to me about the stories of almost everyone on here...it seems to me that almost everyone that I have met was a LBS that really would have given our spouses space to grow IF we would have understood what is inside of them. BUT it isn't the way that it worke.d

I would have stood beside him and befriended him - I offered...he was here then he couldn't hold up the one boundary no ow. He needed his fix. so here I am....and today and yesterday I was pretty ok.

will he come back? dunno....he is sure dark and away right now...further than he has been at all in this entire ordeal. I guess I am not suppose to be surprised. he is truly that displays "out of sight out of mind...."