Thanks blindsided - It all takes a lot of hard work and time. I think he thinks if he does a couple things that he used to, that it will put it all back together. Nope, sorry, we have to completely rebuild if we don't want the house to crumble down at our feet again.
I wish i found him desirable. That's my biggest problem. I would say it's not so much the being in love, but I think the 2 are directly related in my case.
My sitch is weird. I've spent a lot of time in this M feeling like H only had sex w/ me because 1)that's what M people do and 2) he eventually needed a release. I sincerely wanted to feel that sexual connection to him, but i never got that back. Now, it's just the opposite. He wants sex and I'm just doing it. Don't get me wrong, I am 100% there during, but it's not cause i desire or want him, but because i just want him to be happy and that does it.
It'll take time. Hopefully it all comes back...
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
