Thanks so much for your support.I kept thinking about your insights last night and today and they helped me through the day. H is stirring things, he called all night begging to come back. I did say some nasty things to him in each one of them is that if he wants to live life this way he could at least be away from decent women who have different moral values than his.
I think he's giving up the idea of opening up. It was a blef.
He keeps saying he knows he was the worst of the jerks but his sayings doesn't get through me. I am disgusted.
I took H4C advice and started to look for a support group here. I can't do this by myself. I am so lucky to have you guys here. Gladly I am the one that controls the Finance and we have separate accounts so most of our savings are in my name.
He said today that he needs to change and search his soul. He is thinking of doing radical changes that he will give me attorney power to do whatever I want with the assets as he will go away. Didn't get through me either. Now everything he says sounds phony to me.
Anyway, I feel as a heavy lift has gone from the house now he's away. I feel I have some air to breath. Once in a while thoughts of him and OW comes to my head. And I am still astounished he is the way he is.
I just pray I will be strong enough to go all the way with this and that he can find some light in his life someday.
