Thanks for the message. It helped. I know what I need to do, but putting it in action is so damn hard. I have loved this man since I was 11 years old. He has been part of my life for 22 years. I mean I know that is not a long time, but I am only 33 so more than 1/2 my life I have known him. What makes it harder is that I have to see him on a daily basis. No other man since I was 22 has made me feel like him. I never once wanted to cheat, I never once wanted to be with someone else. It really is like aliens abducted my old H and I have no clue who this fool is that they left behind. The personality change is dramatic and almost overnight. I really do think it is a mid life crisis. I went back to school to get my nursing degree and GOD willing I will be done in May. This a a second career for me and I think me getting so close to being done caused him to evaluate his life and just started making him realize how he is no where near where he wants to be. He wants to blame me, but the truth is I never, ever stopped him. There were other issues and I was in no way perfect as a wife. I just wish this was all a bad dream. I swear if I could wake up and just do this over there is so much I would do different.
