I'm having a really down day, just thinking that our marriage probably is over. He's having an affair, he is wanting a divorce, even if it will not be until October until after we work on and sell our old house. I really don't have any encouraging signs from him like many other posts I read on DB (doesn't want to go to counseling or says he loves me or want sex or anything like that). Yes, we are talking now, we get along great, I'm DB'ing, but he still reminds me he wants a divorce frequently. Should I stick to DB'ing because I still love him, have 2 young kids, and feel that our marriage is worth it (he had the affair partly I think b/c I was depressed for the past several years not a complete excuse but I do think one reason why). Or should I give up? Part of me is hoping the affair will break up before October, but part of me doesn't believe it will and thinks I am being delusional and should just give up. Has anyone else had these feelings and have any advice or just have any advice they could give me? I finally have a therapist appt. set for next Thursday so I am hoping that will help a lot too!
