Sleep, I'm floored by what you have experienced in your life. The fact that you have come here to help others like me is a testament to some pretty unbelievable strength. You deserve the Medal of Honor.
Re: your observation on genetic predisposition. I'd bet you're probably right. My hunch is that an MLC is a "stew" cooked up with a blend of life experience and genes.
Oh well. As Vonnegut said: "And so it goes..."
Frankly, for me, and I'm sure for a lot of other people experiencing an MLC spouse, one of the worst things is the lack of nookie. Good grief. One of the best things about our marriage was that we were both pretty "high-drive" people. It WAS great, up until a little over a year ago when this whole thing started. The last time we had sex was last February. I'm about ready to spend my savings on a trip to Nevada. I'm getting pretty good at distancing, GAL, and everything else. But the one thing I haven't been able to calm is the old testosterone. Don't get the wrong idea, I'm not looking for trouble. I know that she's just looking for me to do something like that, so I have no desire to horse around (unlike her). But when you were talking about pills, I wish there was one that would temporarily kill my sex drive.
Me: 51 W: 50 M 24 yrs EA: since Apr 06 S22, S26, S28 ILYBNILWY:Nov 07
"It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything." Tyler Durden