She has sent me a few 'attacking' type emails...basically asking me to make this all easy and leave the house, it would be best for the kids. She even took some shots at rewriting our history some more..such as me not ever taking care of the kids or that her entire marriage was hell. Those are completely not true. She also wanted to tell the kids a bunch of stuff that basically made her look good.
I have replied that I probably wouldnt agree to a parenting plan that was less than 50/50, that I wasnt planning on leaving the house, and that I was going to tell my kids the truth.
Of course she didnt like that reply. Sparked back that it will be a long battle and she may leave the house and take the furniture with her because I dont like that furniture anyways. How strange is that. Furniture? And...she's paranoid I would tell the kids something to make her look bad. I probably wont, but I definitely am not going to lie to them for her benefit. I think it's good for her to stew on this a bit.
Her second attack was it was best for the kids if I moved out, I'm immature for not protecting the kids, she would put her name on all the bills etc, and that I am going to react without thinking. ha! I dont do anything without a lot of thought about it.
everything now is for the benefit of the kids. If it really was, wouldnt she put some effort towards us? everything is really for her benefit.
I only replied to this latest attack 'Im sorry you feel this way'.
I was out all day yesterday and returned last night. I said hello when I came in and she offered me some pizza. Those have been the only words said. Nothing more last night and definitely nothing this morning. I left for work this morning.
Also..i sent her an email letting her know what I was going to do Saturday. And...I gave her a bunch of checks to deposit yesterday, yet they were deposited for $300 less than I gave her? I asked her why and that I noticed she had pulled out $400 from ATM since last Tue...here's a person that would buy a latte on a visa, bcause she didnt carry cash. Now she needs $700 in cash in a week? More secret stuff. I have not rec'd a reply from that email. I know its probably not helping my situation to bring this up with her as I know she will be pissed. But i have to stand up for something. This is ridiculous. Also...bank of america called this morning to ask her a few questions about her visa application. So...she is working on separating everything. I'm already prepared though on my side.
As bad as all this is...i still want it to work out. I was sitting in bed last night and looking up at a wedding picture of the two of us. I just kept thinking 'where did she go'? Where did this person I have been with for so long go? thus...I really think she's not that far away. Just the alien spinning around inside her...where's the antidote?
