known him 2 y. married 1y. i was D for 9 years b4 this R. and my gut doesn't say anything about the stipper/ex-thing. i mean, don't get me wrong, it hurt and i was very angry and i let him know it. but he really doesn't make a big deal about it. it happened, he apologized, he hasn't done it again. and i guess that is why i am here. he hasn't done it again.
he just honestly does not seem interested in ML. not now. maybe not ever. i guess i should just be happy with what i have and not worry about what i don't. i vowed to be with him forever, and i mean my vows. my vows didn't say, i promise to be with you only if you are emotionally and physically available to me. they said in sickness and in health.
it also seems that part of him expects me to leave and maybe he is just trying to give me a reason so that i will prove him right. idk. still at a loss. especially as to why it is always turned around on me. i have to deal with it, not we will work on it.
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Some men see things as they are and say why. I dream of things that never were and say why not? --Robert Kennedy
