Well a week since my last post. It seems it's all come unraveled this week. Yep the separation agreement came into play I got the responses from her attorney on Wednesday and things took a big step backwards based on the changes he wants made. We tried to talk about it on Wednesday night but the conversation kept going back to the past. Why every conversation does I don't know. I just want to look at the future and implement solutions not rehash the past. Why does she keep bring up the past?
I'm tired of it all now, I've finally been worn down. My heart, my soul, my being just can't take the negativity of it all anymore. It seems every time I finally get a solid positive core there's something negative that comes along to just beats me down. She can't seem to get past the past and when we have these conversations she just rebuilds her wall.
So I am done for now. I'm going to focus only on me and the girls and moving forward with my life. No more self help books, relationship books, no more invitations or assistance. The future is what needs my focus not the past. There's some scary things about it, especially financially but they must be faced. Sadly the separation and agreement are pushing us both in the exact opposite direction we want to go emotionally and financially. It's not my decision in many ways. She wants this and it's going to hurt us both for a lot longer. But all I can do is pull myself up, dust myself off and do the best I can and get on with my life.
I do have a new personal saying that y'all might like, "Life does not present us with problems or issues, life presents us with opportunities for creativity!"
Time to get creative!!
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
