Thanks for the support. I need this time for me right now. Really going through a lot of self inventory and evaluation at this time and I really have no decision making capability. Just working my head out. Trying to keep the day filled up with activities and do what I have to do. I'm not setting a time limit on anything but one of my goals for the new year is that I take 30 days to really decide what I'm doing, where I'm going and what I want out of life.
I don't know if this is due to work or what, but over the holidays, I had two clients with cancer, each emergency calls to come sign estate doc's. Both were dead within days. You got one shot at this people don't waste time doing things you don't want to do.
W picked up S last night from my mothers place. W hasn't seen my mother since she left back in June, except at the Court, which there were words exchanged. Oddly enough, my W is still mad about this, "How could your mother not have the decency to say hi?" Hmmm...I don't know, maybe because she thinks your throwing away your family, hurting her grandson, and yourself.
Well I waited until I knew she got them and sent a text. "Hey thanks for doing that, I'm sure it wasn't easy." She replied with, "Your parents were a delight, we talked for a few." Maybe this will let W know she is loved and the plate of crow that she thinks awaits her isn't is large or even there like she thinks it is.
I have a good weekend planned ahead, hanging out with some good friends. Just really enjoying things right now and not letting much get me down. No expectations on my part with W. I sure wish she would come back over to watch a movie or something. It's so nice to have her presence in the house.
Oddly enough, we have had text messages almost nightly since her sister has been in town. While they are very close, they tend to really push each other to party hard and club when they are around. But each time W has sent a text she has gone out of her way to say, oh we are playing x or doing x at my place with S, SIL, and her H. I think out of a whole week they have been out on the town once. Which would be a new world record for them.
Wait and see mode. Well not really, just a ME mode right now. Lets talk about MEEEEE! Haha!
