Ya know LFL maybe I was projecting my anger at you because of the own anger I feel at myself. I did wake up and haven't done anything. But I am at where you were at. The thing that sucks is that I am being pursued by someone who is interested. He is 10 years younger then me. I am vert pro marriage. But I don't know how much longer I can keep going on like this.
wow, It was big of you to admit that. That is what I was thinking the last time you posted but I really don't know your story. It was just a hunch. How long have you been M? Do you have kids? The kids are the thing that I try and focus on when I am at my lowest but I also know I need to make myself happy if this is going to work long-term. And maybe I fool myself into thinking, well, I may hurt H sometimes but at least the kids have an intact family. Cake eating. But I'm really trying to find my happiness with H and he is too. He is one of a kind for sure. Lots of guys couldn't put up with my nuttiness. But at least they get hot sex.
But at least they get hot sex. 
