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hi drz

Honestly, maybe I'm scared that separation will be a one-way street to divorce. Staying together buys me time to get stronger.

I feel the same way and also realize w is going to do what alien(w)wants.

You have the advantage of some hugs, I wouldn't even dream of asking for one of those.

I did get a hug, dont think she enjoyed it.

. The only issue is the OM. Can you deal with it?

As for now im ok. What i'd really like to do is confront om face to face to tell him a few facts and ask if he knows what he is doing and who he is affecting. I would probably hurt him as for now. I am really trying on my gal and pma. I want my wife to want me.
I know i can move on, but i need to know i have done absolutly everything in my power to save us and our family.


Journaling,
this weekend i stayed up late, wasnt tired. last night(a work night) couldnt fall asleep till after midnight, woke up at 3:30 and was awake until i had to be at work at 6:00. Kinda sucks, i thought i was passed that no sleep stage.

This morning i left the precouncouling paperwork on our nightstand(i cant call it her nightstand cause its supposed to be our room) allong with the new insurance cards and left note.

She wanted to get into c before new years (to make her "decision"). Now she has said that seperation is what she wants. After Christmas she told me. I scheduled and app well before Christmas but couldent get in till 1-10-08. Now not sure if she will go.

Before i went to bed i asked if she got the new insurance card and she said yes. That means she got the couns papers also and didnt comment.

FYI i totaly avoid going into computer room when she is on. When i need to go in there, she is clicking quickly to get screen to change so i dont see. Then acting like she is shopping when im icons are on bottom of screen. How stupid does she think i am? I would never try to run up and read what she is typing.
I want my wife to want me.

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