Wow, this thead took off in the last few hours.
Thanks for all the feedback.

I was thinking about everything that was said today on here and approached H too talk about it.

If I can't be honest at this point, when can I. So I asked him flat out, "If I had slept with soldier guy, or even the fact that I didn't but wanted to....what would happen to us?"

He paused and said "Nothing can change what we have. You are my soulmate. We are both f@ck-ups in some ways. so what. I love you and want to be with you....happily with you."

I couldn't believe he was saying it. It was romantic and totally hot. I had to have him right then and there but I heard Corri's voice in my damm head telling me I always get what I want and shaking her head(lol) so I decided to forgo the sexual menu and just give him a mind-blowing blowjob with no return service for LFL (unheard of). He looked like this afterwards:

Then, we talked more about where we are and where we are going. I had the nerve to ask him if he was turned on at all about thinking of me with other men. At first he laughed it off and denied it but he eventually said "I wouldn't call it a turn on or anything but it keeps me on my toes. Always keeping you at the center of where I want to be. I forgot that for a while and I regret that more than anything. I also like how sexy it makes you. You seem so much happier and hotter to me in some ways. Not that you weren't hot before but I couldn't see it. I was blind"

Wow. We have never had such an intimate conversation before. It's amazing that this is my H.

So I told him that he was always going to be the man for me. He is my rock. Truly my alpha male.
Who knew.

I'm just beside myself with love for him right now. I can't even express it right.

Ok, come rain on my parade all of you. \:\/ I dare you.
Actually, you couldn't if you tried. My real life is 1000x better than any fantasy life I've created.


Lucky LFL.