Punk, I know exactly what you are saying, but if helps to stay focused when you are reminded now and them.
Realizing that this is not about you is one of the most important things to understand in this. It makes unconditional love and stnading easier as well as helping with our self respect.
However, knowing this should not be at the expense of taking the time to better ourselves. I have learned so much about Rs since I have been here. I have read about 25 books on the subject. (although, I have not read Love Must Be Tough, so I'll have to pick that up) I become physically healthier and financially stronger (although losing the second income and having to pay for the igloo by myself really hurts the wallet). Without this period in my live I don't know if I would have learned these things. When my W wakes up and returns I am better equiped to be a better husband and father. I guess the simplest way to say it is that I have matured in the last year and I have learned a lot about responsibility.
M35 W37 S9 D6 M12 yrs Know 15 yrs Bomb 1/28/07 My Sitch Failure is the opportunity to start again more intelligently - Henry Ford