I feel you NT...its like I'm walking on a tightrope. If I lean too far one way, H gets angry and withdrawn. If I lean the other way, I'm feeling used and cheated and angry. I don't know how long I can walk this line....
What your W did to your kids was unthinkable. H and I do not have children together but we each have kids outside of the M. I could not imagine not doing anything with/for my son. It goes against everything in me. But they seem to be OK with it...krazy.
I was given a bit of advice I think I need to consider...'If you don't know what to do, then don't do nothing'. I'm going to lay low for a few and see what happens. Easy for me since H and I don't have any reason to talk or see each other (like I said, no kids together) so it shouldn't be too difficult. I've been living my life without him this long...what's the difference now right???
My frame of mind scares me a bit as I'm fluctuating between 'I miss him' and 'F him' but I do know that I am a LOT better off than I was a year ago! I just wish there was something I could do to jumpstart something now...I'm so tired of waiting.
I know....patience....patience...patience....yeah.
