Starting to get it...

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Hi atlas. How do i tell him that i need to know in advance when he's going to want sex. We've normally been every couple days (2-3 times a week) so i figured last night was 'safe' for me. Seems like telling him i need a couple of hours to get my head around the fact that we are going to have sex will make him want to know why and I really can't answer that question without killing him.

It was funny. Had this been before all the drama, i would have relished it. He was trying to take is slow, being patient and kissing me (rather than his preferred method of just jumping on top of me). Then during he was agressive (which i would have begged for back then). Now though, i just wanted it to be over.

This is a hard age for guys, they are really starting to find some things out, and basically high school and college sex aren't cutin it.

It's funny cause he didn't ever get high school sex and anything after that was just me. I think that maks it almost harder. I think for him he's kinda starting to figure out how it's supposed to be for himself (cause heaven forbid he read a book or take my opinion. ) and now I am struggling with it, when i never have before.

I think he's feeling like I'm over the not wanting to have sex thing because I've been doing it so much.

So if you have time to prepare and initiate your ready to go. But if he jumps out of the jungle like a tiger your scared to death.

It wasn't being scared, it was back to being repulsed... I haven't felt that bad about sex since the very begining of all this, so that's probably why i feel like it's a huge leap backwards. The prepare and initiate part of it for me are kinda like a pep talk. Like "you can do this, you want to make him happy, do this for him" kinda thing. I obviously still have a bigger issue with the attraction than i thought.

I grew up in a house where sex wasn't brought up. We arrived via stork and that was just that. Everything we learned about it was from school and friends. So then i got into this R and once i had it, that's all i wanted. I was really bad at first and then i calmed down a little bit. I just want to enjoy it with him again. It doesn't need to be like it was, but just to enjoy him again. That's all...