Start of real Separation

[soul_mate]

Trying to keep my distance from W talked to her once yesterday she called to tell me her brother was having a baby. Did not talk to her at all today. Trying to keep my mind off of her and it is very difficult. All contact being made is by her and it has been this way for a long time now.

Anyway haven't talked to her at all today and out of nowhere I get a text saying How have you been? I respond with Ok how are you doing. Well she never sent anything back. Now I am wondering what she was thinking when she sent me that text. Part of me wanted to say I am doing as good as I can, but I miss you. I know I should not say that kind of stuff so I didn't, but part of me wonders is that what she hopes to hear so she knows that I love her. Well who knows what she is thinking and what is the right thing to do. Whatever the right thing is to do I always seem to do the opposite. She even reminded me a couple of weeks ago that If I would have fought for her instead of giving her space (Space she wanted) things would be different.