PS, The first step in the path to tame fear and suffering is to understand what's going on in your head. You're too busy scanning the environment looking for something that will provide you "security." You're busy trying to interpret your H's words and behavior.
Ask yourself, what's going on here? What is it that I want? Is this something within my influence? Can I learn to let go of the pieces that are beyond my control? Can you loosen your grip on what you want so intensely so that it becomes a preference versus an intense desire?
Are you cultivating positives in your life? This is the final way to tame fear and suffering. By living your life, cultivating positive relationships, engaging in hobbies, having meaningful work, and enjoying recreation you are living your life in the present and increasing the positives.
Are you getting better at taming your fears and suffering? Are you posting less frequently on these issues? Do you get back on-track more quickly?
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."