I started my thread a year ago in Newcomers but now I think it is time to move over to Separated. This has been a long ordeal as I'm sure many us have found out.
H and I have been separated exactly 1 year today and now even though he seems to be coming around, I am having doubts about whether I even want to continue fighting for this relationship.
From my last post....if H knocked on my door TODAY, I don't know if I would want him to come back. I'm a little confused right now and don't know why. I miss H terribly...but I'm oddly happy with my life right now. I think what I miss is the intimacy...just having someone to come home to, or someone to call when I'm having a rough day....someone to cook dinner for or watch TV with. I don't want the hassle of trying to work on a relationship or deal with his issues. Am I detaching too much?? Is that even possible?? Like I said, I'm kinda 'indifferent' right now and that's scary. I could take him or leave him...it doesn't really matter.
At this point, I believe if I met someone else I wouldn't even try to reconcile with H. This bothers me. It feels like I am deserting my marriage...the same thing he did.
This is what is bothering me and I don't know what to do about it. Are these feelings normal when you have detached...I mean REALLY detached....from your spouse?? Did I go too far???
Need some help here before I do something stupid....
