I am so happy to hear that things are going so well !!! It is a joy to have you two back together ! I have found that I have not got your level of patience and compassion...I had an outburst with H yesterday. I told him how useless he feels to me now, that I do not even want to rely on him, because others have helped me MUCH more...anyway, I kind of told him he could go ahead and sign the papers...that it was my new year's present to him, and my own new year's resolution (ouch !)....damage is done, he is once again angry and sulking around me...he does not speak to me if not nescessary, I can just feel him thinking....'here we go again....NOW she doesn't want to have contact anymore...HOW OFTEN will this keep hapening, WHEN will we just be able to be friends and civil to each other...???'
I just can't do it....it's still so very painful...and when he's not in my life, I prosper and LIVE...but he is this huge disturbance....haze...that shakes me and the kids up everytime he comes over and is his JOLLY self !
Oh boy....I hope I haven't disappointed you with all of this. Who knows what will happen next...I have had some GREAT support and very INSIGHTFUL posts about this on my thread.
I will keep in touch ! xxxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
