Stuck in Neutral - MN Man's 5th thread

[mako_man]

MM,
read your post and it brought me back a bit. When I first found out about the current affair my wife was having, and then her moving out shortly after I felt the way you do. You should know that its completely natural and normal for your thoughts to race like they are, and right now even anti-depressents are not going to *stop* those thoughts, only perhaps distance you from them a bit. Its 7 months later for me, and trust me I learned the hard way and got into this DB game maybe too late but I am happy and strong enough to accept this challenge and do what I need to to achieve this goal even with the understanding that the odds are against me. As bad as things tend to seem with this sh*t you are not going to die, and this situation is by no means terminal. Thats where the "act ASIF" stuff comes in, I KNOW its tough but just start to SEE it that way and tell your self "f*ck it, it is what it is right now and I cannot CHANGE it, but I can CHANGE myself". Seems simple and silly, but you know how hard it is to DO that, but you got to. I will also tell you that one of the other things that really helped me was I have been taking Yoga, and into advanced classes now. Definitely helps in ways that no pill can, guaranteed. Before you write it off as being gay or something, know that I am an ex-marine and I felt goofy as hell the first time doing it, but there are an even mix of people in there and many of them are in there to work on their MINDS as well as their bodies. before each workout you are supposed to devote the workout to a goal, or a person or thought so you also feel as if you are "working" towards what you want and thats to be happily married to your wife. Start doing something today, for you, not for her and you will be surprised at how your life will start changing in positive ways.