I guess I will use this as a little journal and place to spew my thoughts. I believe I am starting to get the detaching thing, even if it sounds so illogical in many ways. I suggested to my W that we tackle our problems that landed us here now in the New Year head on, or at least make a list and have a battle plan. She said she was not in the mood and that we can do it some other time. I guess or I believe that she is dealing with much quilt and trying to sort everything out in her mind and I also now see how the A totally changed their thinking and how they viewed us and our marriage.
So what I am hoping is that detaching will make it easier for her to come out of her shell and easier for me to just find some peace and happiness. I will also get back on the exercise wagon and do something everyday. I know that it will be good for, not that I am not in good shape now, but can always be refreshing.
Even as I hugged her last night it still so that I feel that she just wants to get away and not hug me back. Feeling rejected in that way sets my over active mind in motion as well.
I was consumed with vivid thoughts and flashbacks all last night, and I also need to find a way of changing that pattern. I know the feeling and then it just spirals out of control. It started after my W woke me up because I was snoring, oh well.
It is still a roller coaster in every way.
Freezing cold here, but I did walk the dogs so all is well,
