Today I left because I had some errands to run. Left this morning at 8 and came in around 2:15.
When I walked in the door the phone rang. S Answered it and it was H's lawyer.
Well the deadline he has set for himself is here and I supose I should not be shocked,.
It;s just that things were going good...I thought.
He went into the living room (good thing) because it is open and he knew that I could hear him.At least he isn't hiding like he was. She asked him about what I believe to be last year taxes. So he must have gone to see her today.
When I came in the house the classified ads were on the counter. If he is moving out this is where he would look for a place to live.
Breathe E Breathe
It feels like it is happening all over again. Just when I think I'm going to get through this...wham!
Maybe he does need to move out...to miss me, to see what he will miss?????.
I keep going through the stages of MLC that are posted on this site and I wish there was a checklist that I could say that he is past.
I wish things were definate...black and white
Why can't he go through the stages one at a time so that I can check things off so that I know he is DONE WITH THAT ONE!
Do I just coast, stand still, wait and not ask any info?
Wait until I get new information from my lawyer that she gets from his lawyer?
I hate being in the dark and trying to act "as If."
"As if" what??? He is leaving? We are staying together? Things are going to work out? I don't know anything !!!
He has't started to pack anything but that could be done in a weekend.
If he tells me he is going I don't want to fall to pieces. I want to be the person he wants to come back to.
I'm scared
"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"
