I am peeved at W, Lwb. But disappointed in her more-so.
I had another heated R talk with W this evening. It began when I mentioned the freakin' stuffed bear toy. When she mentioned coming over to my apartment she had made some excuse about also coming over to get a DVD for S3 ("ChittyChittyBangBang") and that's when I asked her did she find the bear -- only I didn't use that word, I called it by the OM's name.
W got all silent for a moment and then tried to lie to me that it was S7's idea to get the toy in the first place, and that she had tried to get him to choose one of the other stuffed animals available. I just said, "Uh-huh."
W continued to try to explain, and realized I wasn't buying it. She said, "... you don't believe me." Normally she would take whatever I reply to that question with and use it to act all hurt and say I was not capable of trust.
Instead, this time I replied a little differently, saying, "Should I?"
This threw her off momentarily, but she immediately began talking about our relationship at that point, saying, "All I needed from you was a little kindness and communication in our M."
I replied, "Me too."
She got hyper defensive from then on. The conversation launched off on it's mini roller-coaster ride, and then devolved from there. W was trying so very hard to turn the conversation into an argument, and trying to turn every point of contention as another justification for ending our M.
Only it didn't go exactly as she wanted this time. I think W's been under the impression for some time now that I will put up with all manner of cr*p from her just because I want to save our M. This time however I wasn't taking it, and I wasn't letting her put me on the defensive quite so easily. This confused her so much that at one point that she accused me of not talking "rationally". W is so emotionally-driven now of days, and to hear her try to argue something on the merits of it being rational or not was ludicrous.
W then tried to play her "trump card" on me -- complaints about my ability to properly father my 2 S's. I deflected those too.
In the end however I was still disappointed. I was disappointed in W for failing to ask about my own uncle, who passed away early this morning. I was disappointed in myself for having another R talk with W and for failing to remember to put my foot down with W regarding access to my private abode.
