I got a loooooong email from H this morning. I sent him something from someone elses thread called "MLC for Dummies" and told him that this one hits the nail on the head. It's a sarcastic look from the MLCers side of things. In that thread everyone was debating whether or not to send it to their spouse and I just decided to do it-figured what the hell.
His response was unreal. He said that he can't deny it anymore, that much of what it says is true. He realizes that now and apologized for many of the things that he has done and gave specifics.
On Christmas when I set him free I had said to him that if he would just try he could have it all. He said that that had a big impact on him that day but said in the email that because of PA he has messed that up pretty good now.
He said that I was right about so many things and that he was sorry. This was all in the email-I haven't heard those words pass his lips yet. He said he was sorry for having taken so long to tell me all of these things.
After reading the many stories of others here i am so skeptical. Even in that "MLC for Dummies" piece it says that the mlcer will do this and fall right back into their old ways. I don't know if I'm up for it.
My response to his email? I wrote "Meanwhile, you still work next to her every day, take coffe breaks together, see each other outside of work, and just to throw it all in my face, you still park next to each other. You said when you left in Sept. that we would all adjust and you were right. The girls and I are fine. It's nice not having any stress and pessimism in the house. I'm sorry if that hurts you. I hope you do get help, but at this point, you need to do it for yourself-not for me."
It really IS when you let go that they come running back, isn't it? Now, I don't know if I want him.
Me:45 H: 45 M: 14 yrs T: 16 yrs D's: 7/11 Bomb: June '07 Moved out: Sept.'07
