Thanks for your encouragement. I hope these postings at the start of a New Year are the beginnings of a new Me. I always wanted to write, and here I am pouring my heart out.
Living through our individual hells, and trying to GAL would be impossible if there weren't so many of us out there. This feeling of not being alone is very powerful. I wouldn't wish this nightmare on anyone (other than the OPs in our WASs affairs!), especially not all you wonderful people. However its comforting to know that we haven't been singled out for a huge helping of a "Sh#tty Life with Misery Sauce" whilst everyone else on this planet is deliriously happy!
The theory of GAL is so simple, but its practice is so difficult. Especially if one is older, set in their ways, and so used to doing everything with their WAS. I wish we could all get together and have one huge GAL party. Just scream, go nuts and let out all our frustrations with people who are exactly on the same page. There are times I just want to lean out the window and literally howl with rage at the sky...IS ANYONE UP THERE? WHAT'S GOING ON?
I read an interesting little theory today about being positive, and thereby attracting positivity. If you wake up grumpy then you normally stub your toe, burn your toast, get caught in traffic and generally have a negative day. However if you win a big client at work, clear the tables in Vegas or beat your personal best at sport, then you sort of get on a positive roll and the day goes great. I'm not sure if its got any new age inner power background, but it makes sense in that winners always seem to win, losers just whine. I suppose our GALling means being positive and therefore getting some positivity out of our WASs. It must be very tiring for a WAS to be negative and harsh with someone who's positive and upbeat. This is almost like a battle of good versus evil, positive versus negative, and we all know the good guys win in the end! Obviously being permanently positive in isolation is very tough, and that's our challenge. We should be here in 2008 to try and keep everyone focused on GALling and positivity. We should harness the net and this community for our own source of energy. The key is to keep coming here even when the going is good, because when we're down its already too late for positivity. We'll backslide and have a bad day.
I'm cheering for everyone, and sending out lots of positive vibes. Funnily enough maybe I'm being so positive because W isn't at home; she's at her parents. I've got the house to myself since before New Year, and I've been focusing on reinventing myself. Would I be so positive if she was growling around the house, or all tarted up and ready to hit the town? In the past it would have probably pulled me down, but I hope I'm stronger and I'm actually wanting her to return so I can test my resolve.
