1st post- he left- came back- & just left again

[kissak]

Hey Tipper....it isnt easy to go through this so many times. I understand though what you mean. Even this time I have people saying "you arent ever going to take him back again, are you??" People have no idea what I am going through, but they can see what I cant. You H asking you "are you mad at me"...OMG!!! How many times have I heard that from my H!!! Too many. My reply once was...Yes! yes I am mad at you! I am mad as fire what he has put me and my 2 kids through! This time however is different....he hasnt tried to make ANY contact except about the kids. Thats it. WHy, because i asked him not to. Its my 180. Is it working? Dont know. Is it helping me? Yes, to a degree. I have learned sooo much about my H this year. So much more than I ever thought. I dont think many people actually know there spouses until they go through something like this.

Yes, I still want him back. My feeling have somewhat changed for him, but I would take him back, but now only after he fixes himself and he is far from it.

Not sure what you are doing wrong in you sig line....I go to my account and at the bottom there is a place to put it there. I will check again though.

Take care Tipper....You can do this.....

I need to take my own advice....even after 8 times, I still have moments of laying on the bathroom floor crying saying "i cant do this anymore"....fact is, I am.

Im still standing.