thanks grislen and utterly btw, grislen ~ no offense taken... (i was just po'd at the world)

utterly, i really do think that's really, really, really good advice and something i think i'd be comfortable with, too...

just work on the future...

i know what happened with both of these outbursts

i voiced discontent (it's hard, reading all these S/H books, one says voice all resentments so they don't fester & grow, the other says, well... what you said)

it hurts my feelings and disheartens me with respect to my future in this R if H is gonna "lose it" when I voice discontent. is this the way it will always be? will it be like it was before, where it was not often safe for me to feel discontentment?



anyway, i guess what i have to do (i have been trying, btw, just slipping here and there) is to keep looking forward...

to stop looking at my R in the context of what happened before...


thanks y'all, keep coming back


rjd, i'll check your sitch