Although I am not a writer..hehe.. you certainly should take it up!
Although I don't have to many words of wisdom as theo.. I can remember when my H and I dated we were young too and I never though he could have done the things he's done to me either. Its like blind trust.. which is so dangerous, but why would we think any different.
I never thought for a million years that he could hurt me so, but it happend, and at least im alive to tell about it.
It is totally normal to miss your W and the warm feeling of her next to you.. you are only human.. and that my friend is where will power comes in.
These spouses have serious issues, and all we can do is gal, and try to go on.
There is hope.
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.