Tired and giving up

[LuvMyHusband]

Hi all,
Just got home from work. Yes, I worked today. I have to. I'm tired as all heck. didn't sleep much last night. Thank you for your words of support and encouragement. Brought tears to my eyes. All of you are right in so many ways. I have tried so hard. I have slipped at times but I have really tried. Nothing matters. He doesn't bend an inch. He doesn't even come 1/2 foot closer to me. He's playing me for a fool. Gives me just enough to keep my hopes up. The way I feel right now is that I can't stand him. I think he's pathetic, sick and totally lost. He's a 43 year old man, living in an unfinished bedroom in his parents house, no job, no home, no wife, no kids. Nothing but an illicit affair with a woman with no morals. Wow. Nice life.

I don't want to look at him much less speak with him. The last thing I told him was that all I expected from him was help to pay the bills. Nothing more. I have to email him tomorrow for money to pay them. I am not reacting anymore, I'm planning. I feel that he's a lost cause and that until he can face his problems with porn and this OW that nothing will change between us. At this point I am not planning on things changing. I am however completely detaching from him.