Okay so i went out last night and had a pretty good time. I did leave my cell at home. But I did send H a text saying I was alright and I would talk to him later. So when I got home I had 20 phone calls and texts from him. An hour later he was at my door. He told me that it was the worst day of his life. He doesn't like not knowing where I am and he doesn't like me not talking to him. So maybe yesterday I didn't really go dark I just did a 180? Normally I would be sitting by my phone waiting to hear from him and jump on the times that he wants to come out. When I didn't do that he fell apart. i have always been there for him and helped him pick up the pieces.
So Dom I was honest with him about what I was doing and we have started to make a small plan on how to get things back to a good M. I am not really sure where to go from here because I was not expecting this for at least another 4 mmonths. In my goals I had us doing this in the spring. So a plan to get us bad on track wasn't something I had looked at. I was setting small realistic goals that I could accomplish. Baby steps. It seems we took one huge step in the last few days and I am kinda lost. He hasn't moved back in yet but I guess we'll see what happens in the next week or so. i don't want it to happen too fast beause I want it to be right this time.
Me:32 H: 34 T: 12 YEARS M: ALMOST 5 S: 8 D: 4 S: 14 (OTHER R) SEPERATED: 03/09/07 (but wanted to work on it) NEW SEPERATION: 27/11/07 (doesn't know what he wants) MOVED HOME 12/01/08 I'm acting as if this blue sky is never going to rain down on me....Sara Evans