Countin down to a great 08

[SueS]

Yeah, it is sad.

With me, we were a couple in our late 30's who had a child. BAM, things changed....well for me. I became the mom who devoted her life to her child. Partly because having a child was what I'd wanted for years and partly because H kind of drifted away and spent his nights out partying or at his buddies house drinking. Eventually, we moved and hoped that things would get better. I had post-baby issues, which I was working on. H always thought the problems had to do with him. I told him I loved him, but he would have to give me time go get past my issues. I felt a great deal of pressure being a working mom, not being able to see my H very often, being the primary breadwinner....etc. H decided that HE wasn't getting enough attention. I admit that I could have done better. My mind always said.....D3 will be in school in a few years....things will improve. H decided the better life will probably be with someone who has 4 kids, to party with 20 somethings and do, as he always has, what ever he wants. We're still under the same roof, which makes life very difficult. I don't want to see him leave, I really don't. That thought makes me fearful that he'd never come back. But, he is craving "space" and wants desperately to get out and away from us. There's a growing part of me that want to say.....Here's your space. I don't want to see you unhappy any more. As unhappy as I am right now, I hate seeing him so angry and unhappy too.

Sorry for the vent.

Here's to Day 2 of the New Year!

SueS