Both of you are right...it is easy to throw the phone out of reach or drive off in her face. Completely different to spend the rest of the day not thinking about how simple it'd be to solve our problems. It is so easy to dream...maybe a week...a month...oh I can do wait until...but it doesn't GAL. I know it is all about her feelings and she will say she is done. She has severed ties with anyone that would tell her to try. She is lonely, scared, and searching for happiness. And it stinks that, I cannot talk to her unless she wants to. It does not matter how I think this instant. Until she is willing, I could just as well talk to the wall to my left. It'd be the same result.
As far as GAL, that is problematic in this rural area. A few things I am going to do 1) go watch new National Treasure (30minutes away) 2) do something at a church 3) dance class (if bank account will allow it) 4) continue to do for 5D. (priority one, regardless of $) 5) take a trip (not likely, with $ draining)
My biggest problem is that none of these things will define me. Involvement in a hobby or activity will not get me a live. Heck online chess was a problem. I do not want solo hobbies. I do not want temporary fixes. I want new friendships and companionship and a movie just isn't going to do it long term. The opportunity to do anything with WAW would be it, but without her going to an opera just doesn't sound like a life. You get my point. I need to find things just for me. Heck, even being on this site everyday is counter to that objective.
