Charcoal & Dreama, hope you don't mind me stepping in here....
Quoting Dreama:
I am more confused now after reading what everyone posted than I ever have been.
That's OK. Confused is good! It means you are still open to other possibilities. Best thing for you now is to not feel pressured into taking action in one direction until you can search deep in yourself to find the answer of which possiblitiy is best for yourself and your children.

Quoting Dreama:
I'm still not sure that I care enough to make it work. I know that I'm not sure I've given it a chance. I can argue and scream and fight with the best of them. But when it comes to letting someone know that I'm wrong or don't know I can't do it. I'm not sure that I can let Floyd in any more, you know self-preservation.
In the end, its not a really about whose right or wrong ... its about getting what you want in life - that's self-preservation! Could what you want be - to go through life being happy living with Floyd and the children? If there is a possibilty that the answer is yes, then don't worry about if you can make it work or if you can let Floyd back in yet. That's too overwelming at this time. The first step is to make the best of the time you decide to spend together by trying to enjoy their company. The rest can come in time...

Charcoal, it certainly seems you are finding what works for you! ...

'til later,
KAW