tonight, H presses to know why I'm so bummed lately. I don't want to tell him because i'm feeling bad about the xeom... but, he asked directly, and I told him. I told him I was sorry, and didn't want to bring it up because I do not want to hurt him anymore. He said he just wants us to be happy.
then H made yummy fish tacos
he set his plate at the table and soon got up and started cleaning the kitchen.... then he went for his hiking boots...
internally, my insecure self imagines the worst... that because of what we talked about earlier, I now repel H so badly he cannot eat and has to leave the house
HEAR THAT? ALL YOU H'S WITH WAW'S???
The different thing that happened tonight is that I told him that that was what I felt. He told me I was incorrect in that assumption. I asked for a little more communication, and I told him I am feeling pretty overwhelmed right now. So, rather than go hiking by himself, he took D4, leaving me with S1 to enjoy for the duration.
We can do this, right? Communicate??? What's so hard about that? :P
