Glad you and Mat are communicating. I remember the gun shy moments so well. It's all one step at a time. One love deposit at a time. One point soon after H and I had got back together and before I had discovered the second set of e-mails to Xow H told me he felt like he was damned if he did, damned if he didn't. So Saturday I Asked him if he felt that way anymore. I guess he totally misunderstood the question because he "I love you physically!" WTF?? So my face fell, Charcoal I know he loves me and more than physically but I do believe he is still afraid to totally let hisself love me like before and that sucks!!!! He said later Kim you know I love you but that was a loaded question. So I didn't let him know how much it hurt. So I'm in a good spot definetly but I really still need to detach and let him be. Plus remembering what he wrote to XOW in the last set of e-mails really hurt. I want to be loved for who I am not because its the right thing. Or that our sex life is finally excellent. Anyway sorry to rant on your thread but Ouch!!!! Kim
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