Yes Jenny, I am so excited about the photos too. Been looking forward to this for a long time.

H was a bit bummed saying he wished he could go with me today for the pics and hoped I would give him one. You bet, I am going to give him a big pic of his child to put on his table next to OW's kids! How nice. I will give him some pics. I want him to be reminded daily of what he is choosing to miss out on every day. Oh, wait...I have to rephrase that. He wants to see his baby everyday but then leave when he wants and have his own life.

I really feel bad as I am pushing H out of my life because he still contacts OW, but I am starting to feel this panic feeling. The baby is just 10 or less weeks away. I don't want to feel this way when she comes. I want to feel comfortable with H there with me and not despising him. Right now I have visions of the delivery room and H standing there and I just want to punch him in the nose! I want to look to him for comfort and as genuine support. Right now I don't feel that safety with him. He is trying to connect with me, but I won't let him because of his 'friendship' with OW. What am I going to do?

Me: 46 FWS: 36
Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07
Baby Girl born 3/08
Kicked him out because OW: 7/08
5/10 He realized what he had and lost.
Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!