Long and Bumpy Road #2

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I know they are still talking. He did admit that. They text as friends and its all about her dying dad. I don't trust it and even if I did its still not right.

He is trying to communicate with me and I shut the door most of the time. I barely respond and when I do its just a few words.

I have some major things to decide....if things are the way they are in March do I have him in the delivery room? I really do want him there and don't want him to miss it, but parts of me feels like he doesn't deserve it. I don't want to make a decision out of spite or anger. Another is the baby's last name...his or mine? Both of these things I know would hurt him deeply if I didn't go his way. My decisions need to be for the right reasons and right now they are purely out of spite.

Someone told me I needed to start making him run his butt off for me now. Run errands, bring me things, do things for me, but with no emotion on my part. Let him start working for this. He is always claiming that he is here for me and baby but I have always pushed him away. I don't know if I could go through with that though.